I Need Your HELP!

I need your help!

I am hopeful that some of you amazing people will be able to give me some advice.  I’ll just get right to it…

My birthday is coming up next month.

Now, I’m not normally a person who makes a big deal about my birthday:  I won’t give you a heads up about my birthday if we work together;  I won’t drop Mr. Blue Eyes hints about gifts;  I don’t arrange babysitting so that I can treat myself to something special.

To put it into perspective, one of the more “formal” ways that I have acknowledged my own birthday was last year when, after getting Ladybug down for her nap while the older kids were at school, I decided to treat myself to a LONNNNGGG shower for my birthday.  (Seriously, a SHOWER was how I acknowledged my birthday! I know, I know…I’m a regular party animal.)  Anyway, I turned on some tunes, shaved BOTH of my legs without interruption, and washed my hair without having to peek out of the curtain every five seconds to check on kids.  It was blissful.

Then it happened.

I noticed the lump in my breast.  (Click here to read my full cancer story in chronological order).

I immediately called the doctor’s office and set up an appointment for later in the month.  Then what was I supposed to do?  I had a knot in my stomach about a lump in my breast, but I didn’t want to worry anyone with the holidays coming up.  So I kept it between me and Mr. Blue Eyes.  My parents treated us to dinner and I went about my evening as if it was a normal birthday.  But it was NOT a normal birthday.

birthday celebration with sombrero

I had a sombrero on my head, a baby on my lap, and a lump in my breast.

Words can’t describe the thoughts and fears that were swimming in my head as I sat in front of my family, listening to them sing “Happy Birthday” to me; their eyes were all on me and I just wanted to crawl under the table and curl up into a fetal position.  All I DO know is that I remember those feelings vividly, and they all come rushing back when thoughts of my upcoming birthday enter my mind.

So here’s where the need for advice comes in:

What should I do for my birthday this year? 

I don’t want to dwell on the big feelings from my birthday last year. What would you do if you were in my position?  Regular, averagely-festive birthday celebration, ignoring the elephant in the room?  Embrace the idea of the “anniversary” and go to the same restaurant…like a do-over?  Start some sort of new tradition?  Skip festivities all together?  Take it over the top with some sort of wild and crazy activity? If I choose to celebrate in some way, what should I do?

See what I mean???  I need help!  You’re talking to a girl who thought a SHOWER was a perfect birthday treat. I know you all are very creative people, and I would be SO APPRECIATIVE of any ideas you’d be willing to share.  Leave your awesome ideas in the comments below (or on Facebook if that’s easier).



5 thoughts on “I Need Your HELP!”

  1. Get a baby sitter for the night. take a bubble bath…light some candles. Take mr blue eyes and yourself out on a date. Just the two of you, hold hands and laugh!

  2. You could cerTainly use a do-over, if you wanT to go simple. But it was a pretty big deal and a busy crazy year! At least allow your sElf care be more than a long jazZy shower… give yourself s spa day or a weekend with just the husband.

  3. That long shower last year saved your life so this year a quiet family dinner at home complete with cake with party hats. Make it a celebraTion for the kiDs as well. I don’t usually make a big deal of My birthday either, but if i had been tHrough wHaT you have accomplished i would definitely be ceLebrating to take charge of the day and fill it with positivity.

  4. I think you need to face this birthday head on & be thankful you took that shower & noticed that lump! Celebrate that you are alive & healthy one Year later, have been so blessed this past year & have learned so much along the way. You are so awesome in si many ways👍❤️

  5. Go all out this birthday. Find a bucket list item and see if its possible now, an all day spa and beauty day that ends in your favorite dinner, a downtown portland night on the town with a stay at a nice hotel…whatever you do, make time for yourself to have a moment and soak in the yeaR and hoNor your hard work and sacrifice. Then, continue your fabulous day filled with things you love. ❤️

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